Would You Understand?

Dengar lagu buat aku emo.. Biar la tak paham sepatah haram pun.. Aku maksudkan lagu Whalien 52 dendangan BTS.. Phuh.. dendangan tu takleh blah tu.. Tapi topik hari ni bukan pasal kpop..

Okay.. Let's be deep for once.. Memandangkan aku agak emo ni, marilah sama-sama menyesakkan otak untuk memikirkan sesuatu seperti..

What if one day you lose your ability to express?

Macam kes di atas.. SUARA..

Macam kes aku.. Ability to draw..

Bila aku cakap 'ability to draw' maksud aku kebolehan untuk merealisasikan idea ke sekeping kertas ataupun kat monitor lelz whatever

To be honest, I want to give up drawing. Because no matter how hard I try, I could never materialize the idea I had in my mind. Every time I think of an idea, I would plan the execution meticulously.. But when the time comes for me to transfer it onto the paper, it would never come out the way I see it in my head. For years I've been tortured by my own inability to express myself. Not through drawing, writing or even viva voce phuh.. nak cakap verbally je padahal, viva voce bagai..

I'm so frustrated by it that I would avoid drawing altogether.. It's not about being able to draw nicely.. It's not about the technique. It's not about how precise the anatomy is.. It's about the idea.

Why can't I show you the exact thing I saw in my mind?

Macam cerita kat atas.. Aku nampak benda tu dalam kepala aku lain. I tried to stay true to my initial idea but my hands won't agree with me. My fingers defied me.

It's still in my head, the imagery.. It's so vivid that it's almost mocking me for my incompetency.

Do you know the loneliest place one can be? It's the head.. The head is the loneliest place to be.. Nobody could hear you.. Nobody could see it the way you do.. Yet it's so loud, it's deafening.

Adieu

That B*tch Resting Face

Hi guise..

Demi menyahut tag Plain-sama, aku dengan penatnya telah menyiapkan lukisan terbabit. Sorry Plain, aku tau aku patut lukeh satu je.. But I'm trying to explain myself for having such a hateful expression everyday. (T.T)

My resting bitch face is no joke. Some people might think that I'm so lansi for making that face. Truth is, I'm very tired ALL the time. I can't control my face muscle that efficiently any more. When you see me irl, you might really need to hold your urge to hit me square on the jaw.

Lewat dah ni. Tido lambat nanti berganda-ganda kelat muka pagi esok.

Adieu

p/s; Dengan ini aku menforwardkan tag ini kepada rakan blogger sekalian

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Jawapan teka teki

Sorry aku rasa nak hurai gak teka teki ni. Sila ke entry Cero untuk info penuh..http://cerolian.blogspot.com/2015/11/tEka22.html

Pokoknya di sini. Berapa orang Cero dan berapa orang kucing untuk menghasilkan 37 kepala dan 124 kaki.

Penyelesaiannya:

Mari kita wakilkan Cero dan kucing sebagai X dan Y

Selepas pengklonan berlaku, cero dan kucing totalnya 37 kepala semuanya;

x + y = 37
x = 37 - y

Kita tahu yang Cero berkaki dua (kadang-kadang berkaki ayam, mungkin) dan kucing berkaki empat. Jumlah semua kaki untuk makhluk berdua ini adalah 124. Kalau diwakilkan sebagai unknown;

2x + 4y = 124
2(37-y) + 4y = 124
74 - 2y+4y = 124
2y = 50
y = 25

Ok, dari sini kita tau y atau pun kucing ada 25 ekor semuanya, maka x ataupun cero;

x = 37-y
x = 37-25
x = 12

Kesimpulan, selepas pengklonan terdapat 12 orang Cero (termasuk Cero yang original) dan 25 ekor kucing (termasuk kucing yang original).

Mari check kiraan ni,

Cero + Kucing = 12 + 25 = 37 kepala
Kaki Cero + Kaki kucing = (2x12) + (4x25)

= 24 + 100 = 124 kaki

Maka, kucing lagi terer dari Cero. Sekian.

Dapat hadiah ke tidak ni?


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Bahasa

Hi Guise

Sebelum apa-apa, ye aku dah jumpa pen aku. Tersorok lam laci kertas. lolol

Hari ni aku cuba untuk menulis dalam bahasa melayu. Kebanyakan entry dalam blog ni aku tulis dalam bahasa inggeris sebab aku takut nak rosakkan bahsa melayu aku dengan tulisan merapu. Tapi hari ni aku terpanggil nak bincangkan isu melayu dan bahasa.

Hari ni aku ternampak topik di Facebook mengenai negara Jepun dan Korea yang maju tanpa bahasa inggeris. Kenapa melayu perlu belajar bahasa inggeris untuk maju? Kenapa banyak majikan memilih pekerja berdasarkan kebolehan mereka berbahasa inggeris?

Ada seorang pengomen tu hujahnya lebih kurang seperti di bawah.

Satu benda yang selalu aku dengar. "Dah kenapa kena belajar bahasa inggeris? Asyik nak tiru penjajah je bila kita nak maju? Ni lah melayu asyik nak mengagungkan orang barat sampai bahasa sendiri pun dah tak utamakan"

Perangai orang macam ni bila tak berjaya salahkan orang lain sebab letak syarat tinggi. Tak pandang silap sendiri yang tak berusaha untuk mencapai syarat-syarat diperlukan. Bodoh sombong. Dah bodoh, sombong lagi. Tak puas hati. Semua silap orang lain, bukan silap sendiri. Bila tanya kau boleh ke baca jawi, tersipu malu tak reti. Apa-apa pun berbalik pada diri sendiri jugak kan?

Rugi ke belajar bahasa? Rugi ke ruang otak kau untuk belajar bahasa? Banyak orang aku jumpa yang pandai berbahasa inggeris pandai baca jawi.

Jawi belum mati. Tapi kau sendiri pun belum tentu nak menghidupkan jawi. 

Tak payah cakap pasal tulisan jawi la kalau masa exam PI dulu pun malas nak tulis jawapan dalam tulisan jawi. Jangan cakap gebang. Pokok pangkal, belajar la untuk maju. Bukan untuk jadi keyboard warrior melalak tak kena cara.

Bahasa bukan penentu kemajuan tapi nilai tambah. Jepun dan Korea maju sebab attitude. Attitude paling penting.

Dah la. Kang cakap aku lebih-lebih pulak.

P/S: Teringat ada satu rancangan Korea ni. Bila cakap pasal orang Malaysia terus presepsi diorang "Oh orang Malaysia memang terer English." Macam kagum gila diorang. Harap maklum, orang Korea pun belajar bahasa inggeris ok.

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Dropping the news

I've lost my Bamboo Pen which explains the absence of artwork. Sape tau mana nak beli replacement Wacom Tablet Bamboo Fun punya pen? Sangat urgent. Thank you.

Makhluk ni dah ghaib tak tau pegi mana

Sampai hati dia lari rumah..

Anak tak mengenang budi.. Penat aku bela kau..

Butterfly.. Like a Butterfly..

You're so beautiful I'm afraid,

Hold you

Hold you

You, you, you

Will you stay next to me?

Will you promise me?

That if I touch you, you will fly away..

Break

I'm afraid

Afraid, afraid, afraid

Will you stop the time?

When this moment passes,

That it will become something that didn't happen

That you'll forget me

I'm afraid

Afraid, afraid, afraid

Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly

Like a butterfly

An entry for the hopeless romantic.. Because I miss Kei, that's all.. And because this song has been haunting me ever since they release that teaser. Damn you, Big Hit..

Adieu

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The Life of A Fan

Okay BigHit. Can I please have my life back? It's not even a month after they concluded their world tour, a comeback? Really? A freaking comeback?! Damn it. There goes my sanity.

Cracking fingers. Better get ready for voting and fan art..

Not a fan? Just ignore this. I just can't sleep before posting this on my blog.

Adieu

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Spesies Luar Biasa

Hai..

Nasib la aku tunggu marah ni reda sikit sebelum merapu kat sini..

Dah kau kenapa pulak nak bawak laki ko datang salon muslimah ni? Romantik ke bawak laki ko datang salon? Seriously? Takde tempat lain lagi dah ke ko nak bawak jantan? Kedai kopi ke. 7Eleven ke. Ni salon muslimah jugak ko mengangkut laki ko tu. Macam ko sekor je ada laki. Tu pun kalau laki la.. Kalau boyfriend ada lagi sekarung aku nak maki ni.

Yang jantan pulak. Dah nampak pompuan ramai kat situ, bukak tudung, ko yang duk toye tersengih-sengih kat situ kenapa? Nak kata tak paham konsep, bini ko tu pun pakai tudung. Hah dah tu tak reti-reti nak berambus ke?

Dah la nak cari salon muslimah ni sikit punya payah. Dah jumpa sebijik ada pulak makhluk wayar tak center ni datang melepak. Sakit pulak hati aku ni.

Dah, baik ko pegi mereput sana.

Adieu.

p/s: Illustrasi sekadar lukiran saja.

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Embracing The Dark Side

 

So have you missed me?

A Stir

It feels like my life is taken over by the littlest thing. Little things which are collectively HIM. Every song sounds like a love song when I'm with him. His smile is like the warm coffee in the morning, reassuring, comforting. He stares into my soul, burning a hole through my head. His gaze is so loving and child like. My eyes immediately run elsewhere as the warm blood gushes to my cheeks. Enough with the dimpled smile, mister. You're making me blush.

His shoulders shake as he chuckles at my reaction. He pulls my hand, clasping in his left. His other hand reaches for my face, fingers grazing softly on my cheek to my lips. His lips mouth a word.

"Beautiful"

And I woke up, depressed. That was an awesome dream.

I've been getting a lot of pleasant dreams as of late. Reading a well written fanfic is really refreshing. The images keep flashing whenever I'm immersed in a good song or taking a nap in my cosy bed. I miss reading. I miss loving books. Whenever I'm reading a good piece, it's like I'm living the romance as if it were my own. I'm nowhere close to being a good writer. I don't think I will ever be. But if I were to create something, I hope it comforts people it touches. I hope it makes people feel warm and loved. That's what good writing do to you.

I can be a warm person too. I want to be a warm person.

p/s: If you are here for a comic, I think you'll be disappointed. Yet again. I won't commit to anything. I just want to enjoy this moment.

10 years later

"On the way here I've thought about a thousand curse words for you. All the years you've wronged me. All the pain you've inflicted on me." He paused. He lifted his face. His lips trembled nervously as he said "But now that I see you, all I want to do is to hug you"

I looked into his eyes, brimming with tears. Not a single word escaped my lips. Calmly, I slammed the door to his face. BAM!

"Drop dead, you bastard"

And I carried on watching YouTube with his wailing echoed along the corridor.

This is a snippet of my currently running fanfic on Asian Fanfic. Yeah, I write fanfic now. Not the gay OTP fanfic people usually associates with. I don't do those kind of fanfic. So, worry not, this snippet is in no way reflecting my personal life. I don't have ex running after me. My love life is somehow stagnant. I kinda like it most of the time.

I should really go back to making comic and stuff but heyyyy.... I'm a lazy ass person who lives on hating herself so FML.

We are A Bit Abnormal

Hi guise,

So it started with my sister posting this photo to our Whatsapp group. At first i was like, "Heh, this kid sure has a lot of time to waste for doing something useless like this"

[My sister Cauda, she copy herself with a photostat machine. What a dork. ]

But when I get to work today, I had this sudden urge to do the same weird thing. Hilarity ensues. I present to you, my masterpiece.

It was so dirty. But hey, that white stuffs you see is from my scanner. The photo comes out like an awesome photo shoot. With a dork as the subject matter. It even captures my enormous nose and the filthy blackheads.

[This one is my favorite.. ]

I shall frame these and hang them on my wall.. Yes.. 

Sorry for posting a weird entry today. My head is wired differently. I am a bit cuckoo inside.

Adieu.

p/s: I should stop pasting my face on social media.

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That's Hot.. [Part Deux]

Because I like to overplay the theme..

Hi Guise,

Sometimes charm works mysteriously. How is it that the simplest thing can be considered charming? Am I over-romanticizing things or are there some truth in these? Ingat tak entry aku yang lepas pasal reverse kete tu? HAHAHAHA. Aku rasa mungkin aku sorang je yang akan setuju ngan benda-benda cani.

Ntah la. Aku tak tau. Yang pasti, kadang-kadang berbunga jugak. These are the list of things I find charming in guys. It's okay to disagree with me. I don't have that much romantic experience with guys anyway. Heck, it has been almost 4 years since I last seriously dated a guy.

Exhibit A
When guys run fingers through their hair. Plus point if they put on a snapback afterwards.

Exhibit B
When guys roll up their sleeves.

Exhibit C
When guys volunteer to pick up your coffee/order from the counter. And then he serves your coffee, smiling. Hahaha. Apasal aku terbayang scene K-drama ni?

Exhibit D
When guys just stare into your eyes, seemingly getting lost in your gaze.

Exhibit E
When guys pull your chair/stool closer to them while you're still sitting on it. (Respectfully)
This last bit is actually my favourite. It's like he's proving his dominance over you. Plus, when you're overweight like me, it's impressive if you can move me at all.

I like to contradict myself.. guys are creepy..

All and all I think that guys are charming when they don't plan to impress you at all. Being mindful is great but being comfortable in your own skin is the most charming thing ever. Be confident. Girls dig confident guys. I'm sorry if I offended some of you when writing this because you know, some people hates these kinda thing. Mushy things..

Adieu

p/s: I bet my balls some will say something about maksiat in the comment section. Oh wait, I don't have balls. Please proceed.
p/p/s: Sorry about the quality. I was rushing..

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Gender War

Tajuk hari ni sepatutnya "Entry untuk Buat yang Jantan-jantan tak Selesa. Ko Bukan jantan? Ko Pun Akan Rasa Tak Selesa Jugak" tapi obviously tajuk tu panjang sangat so scratch that shit.

Hi guise,

Miss me? Don't be.

Sebagai mukadimmah aku nak remind korang pasal latar belakang aku. Aku seorang perempuan yang cuma ada adik-beradik perempuan. So aku agak tak terlatih untuk bergaul dengan lelaki. Berbeza dengan adik-adik aku yang lain, abah aku especially treat aku lebih jantan dan perkasa which explains why I am the only one whom he ever asked to help around his workshop. He's a welder btw (for those who didn't know). So kerja-kerja berat ni agak sinonim dengan aku. Disebabkan ini jugak aku treat kawan lelaki aku lebih kurang aku treat kawan perempuan aku except aku lebih gentle ngan pompuan. Meaning, I usually see guys as an equal, not as some possible breeding partner. In some cases this might differ. These special cases would involve me being way too flirty for my own good.

OK back to the story!

Ditambah lagi aku sekarang kerja dalam dunia lelaki. Dunia lelaki? Aih sexist nya ko Day. Apa, ko ingat ko sorang jeke engineer pompuan? Aku tak maksudkan camtu. Cuma karier aku ni lebih didominasi oleh kaum lelaki and understandably why. Sebelum apa-apa aku nak bagitau, ini bukan sesi mengeluh pasal kerja macam entry lepas.

Bila kau sorang pompuan dalam office yang semuanya lelaki, things bound to happen. Bagi yang cepat flustered dengan benda-benda macam, dipersilakan melarikan diri daripada membaca entry ini. Kalau nak teruskan membaca, baca la dengan fikiran terbuka and treat is as a joke. To me it's funny so don't be an ass by saying something like "Eww pompuan ni.. Takyah cita la benda camtu. Tak malu ke?"

Ni kompilasi cerita yang berlaku di office aku sebab kadang-kadang abang-abang aku ni lupa yang aku ni pompuan dan kadang-kadang aku pun lupa yang aku ni pompuan di kalangan jantan-jantan kat sini.

Kisah 1

(Aku dah tak ingat cite apa yang lawak sangat sampai aku kena tumbuk.. Aku tak korek idung depan diorang.. Ni khayalan saje..)

Kisah 2

(Aku rasa diorang tak heran pun tapi bila aku pikir balik aku jadi malu sendiri)

Kisah 3

(Ni pun aku rasa diorang tak heran pun. Makanya, pakai la sport bra kalau dah tau nak kena berlari anak. BTW, berlari-lari di tapak pembinaan adalah sangat bahagia bahaya dan tidak dibenarkan.)

Kisah 4

Aku terdelete komik ni. hahaha. Lahabau.Hahahaha

Kisah 5

(Kantoi adalah sangat memalukan..)

So tell me. Salah aku ke bila diorang lupa nak treat aku as a lady? Ataupun sebab aku lama sangat bergaul ngan bapak orang sampai aku sendiri lupa nak behave as a lady? Maaaaahhh,, aku perlukan rakan sejantina.

How comfortable are you with the opposite sex? Share it on the comment section below. Ejewah dah macam youtuber bagai.

Adieu

p/s: pergh lamanya tak post komik.. Malas tu obvious sangat. hahahaha

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Breaking Point

I hate advertising my work life. Everyone has their daily chores so really, I don't have the right to rant.

Makin tak boleh cakap la makin aku nak cakap kan. To be honest aku tak plan nak jadi engineer selamanya. Pressure kerja, gender inequality, safety risk.. Too many things on my mind. I'm lucky to be part of a very good company. My company invest a lot in their people. I think most company do.Trainings and what not. Ko nak tau pasal apa, planning? Contract? Technical drawing? You name it. They'll send you to any training you want. They'll plan your work around your trainings for you. They sponsor your need to gain the necessary knowledge. They even keep track on how good you are after those trainings. They mentor you on one-on-one basis. Like what parents do. Heck, mak ayah aku lagi tak kesah dari diorang. That's how supportive they are. And I am very thankful for it.

Tapi sebab diorang sangat supportive la aku rasa macam bersalah gila bila pikir yang aku taknak jadi jurutera dah. Buat apa invest banyak-banyak kalau ko confirm taknak buat benda-benda tu? Penat-penat company nurture ko achieve your full potential tiba-tiba ko nak tutup kedai dengan alasan ko tak simply taknak. Why waste the money then?

Why is it that people could see me doing this for another three years but all I can think about is to pull the plug out, live as a slob instead. It's not a sin to hate your job. It's not hypocrisy to hate your job but at the same deliver pretty much everything spelled in your JD. But why is it that I feel like I'm doing this for someone else, not for me. For the company. For the family. For me?? No?

Why do I even hate doing this?
Why do I want to stop?
Do I really want to stop?
What is it that I want?
What do I really want?

For now?

I want to fuck off.

My Work Place

Hi guise,

I'm not going to post a comic entry today. Sorry. I'm experiencing terrible turbulence in my artistic flow. Plus, I haven't completed my commission so it's kinda unfair for me to do anything else than that. Which is easier said than done. Rupanya susah buat komik ni. Heih..

Anyway, this is not the time to just surrender to my laziness. I manage to clean up my work place and I hope that it would boost up my energy to do something productive with the commission today. Without further ado, I would like to introduce you to my cave. My friend said that it is equivalent to a home studio but I can't agree since I don't really have that many art supply to be grouped as a studio.

(Sorry about the overexposure. I tweak with the camera setting and forgot to change it back)

On a good day, my desk wouldn't be piled up with foods and undergarment. This is a decent photo of my desk. I have a 3 in 1 printer which I love so much. Please do not die on me any time soon. That's my folding hair which frequently causes embarrassing incidents of me being stuck in between. The desk I got from IKEA. It's affordable and I love it so much..

Now a closer look at my desk. The panel is stuck to the wall. The previous tenant was kind enough to leave it behind when they move out. Perfect for me to keep my pen away from the desk. I spot Aujinz just next to my Faber Castell pencil colour. On the far end is my paper haul. I have Deleter manga paper, copic manga paper, bleed proof marker pad, sketch pad and watercolour pad. My favourite would be the bleed proof marker pad since I colour my tradart a lot. That green tray is my draft tray. For comics I usually do a draft sketch on printing paper and just put it in the tray. I'll revisit the sketch when I have time to finish it.

A better view on my haul. I keep my drafting pencils in a wooden box because I like to separate my pen and pencil. I also have four erasers. The block erasers I use for general sketching. The blue colour stuck to it is from my blue lead. I have two mechanical erasers which I use for realism pencil drawing (I seriously dunno the correct name). That kneadable eraser at the end (might be a bit hard to see) is also use for pencil artwork.  The two bottles at the end are the whiteout and my favourite ink from Deleter. The nibs for my dip pen are in the cute truck aka my piggy bank. Multiliners and drawing pens are all in the barrel for easy access. 

I keep a photo of my parents close to my work desk. You know.. For that daily boost of love and motivation. Bahahah. Next to it is big bottle of minyak cap kapak for when the love from the photo cannot help with the splitting headache from staring at the computer for too long. Most of my drawing pen/multiliners are from Copic since they don't get smudged when layered with copic marker.

 Pencil and markers. And mirror because I'm a narcissist and I have to look at my face 24/7. Joke. It's for expression reference. 

Some books because I need help from sensei out there. I'm not born with all the knowledge of comic making. That yellow book is not a reference book. It's just for my light reading. It's a funny illustrated book and had nothing to do with being a parent. Seriously. It's not like I'm reading it to prepare myself as a parent. Hahaha. you guise would understand.. right?

Anyway.. That's where I spend my night drawing. I would love to see your work desk. Especially Aujinz. Aku tau ko pun jenis hoard barang-barang melukis.. HAHAHA. Cepat, post entry meja melukis ko.

Sampai situ saje entry kali ni. Sorry for the english. Don't mind my writing, I've lost touch with the author in me.

Adieu.


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Random Rambling [updated]

Hi guise,

Rambling tak berkaitan dengan imej. Saja lukeh sebab sekarang banyak sangat main digital je. jadi jemu. Sape boleh teka mamat dalam komik merapu ni sape, memang peminat kpop sejati. kalau tak dapat teka, jangan bimbang. Anggaplah aku tak terer buat fan art.

Ok sambung buat keje..

Adieu.

P/S Rasa cam nak demam je. Haaa

[updated]

OK this is not working well. This obsession is clearly unhealthy for me. I'm 26 years old, for crying out loud. This is not the age to be a fan girl..Anyway.. This is BTS, Bangtan Boys. I previously drool over B.A.P but with the group facing issues with the company I just dunno. Plus, BTS reminds me of the B.A.P during their Warrior era.

*taken from War of Hormones at 0.29. That Rapmon part is awesome "I'll be in panic, I'll be a fan, and I'll be a man of you you you babe".

OK conclude.

Adieu!!!!

p/p/s: Jimin never had a cat like hair like the one in first artwork. that is actually combo of JHope and Jin. The one on the right is actually Jimin. Though I don't think it resemble him that much.

p/p/p/s: Mixed media - Deleter dip pen & Ink no.4, Pentel Graphgear600, Pilot Eno Colour (blue led), Copic Markers (Sketch and Ciao), Copic Marker Pad 70gsm, Faber-Castell Watercolour Pencils, Pilot Choose White Gelpen and Deleter Whiteout No.1.



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My Own Colour

Hi Guise,

My mind is a lonely place. Sure it provides me ample distraction to stop thinking about how much being an adult suck. I seek refuge in this tiny grey box I have for a mind. Sometimes, when I spend too much time on my own, I crave for companion. It gets boring talking to yourself. You know what you're going to say. You know your word won't hurt you. And you know even if it is hurtful, you will be okay with it. 

Loneliness is a void.. It gets so empty that I just can't stand it's emptiness.. And so I create a door, hoping that someone would enter. Sometimes I get lucky, they'll come. Bearing these amazing colours of thoughts and stories. 

Sometimes they get too colourful that I feel uncomfortable. I need to escape..

Sorry for the lousy Gif..

When they don't want to go away, I retreat into my grey box. Where I can feel safe, warm and free.. But it's lonely there.. How can you be free while you're confined? Is it weird that I only feel like myself when I'm all alone? Is it wrong to be your own person?

This is what I feel about my artwork..

I want to be free.. I am comfortable with whatever colour I am. I'll admit that your colours are magnificent beyond doubt. It might even be what many people is aiming for. You have so many colours to choose while I only have grey. But I'm fine with it. Please don't paint me with your colour, your definition of how art should be.. I don't mind being mediocre. I don't mind my artwork is just a lousy artwork. As long as it's mine, unconfined, free.. i'm happy with it.

Some people might love change. Some people might rush to evolve. But I am perfectly okay with being stagnant.

So please.. Understand that I want to be confined in my grey box..

Just please.. Let me be..

I'll grow at my own rate..


Adieu

P/S: Crazy kejar deadline so I won't be posting anymore comic for a while. Unless kalau dah gian sangat.
p/p/s: Annoying gila gif ni. Ni last aku buat gif.. Unless kalau dah terer buat gif power nanti..

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That's Hot..

Let's take a break from the new (unconfirmed comic series) and go a step back.



Hi guise..

I don't know if you notice this..

Girls might..

Some boys might too..

Who am I to discriminate?

A while back I was in the car with my new colleague. He's a graduate engineer fresh from UK. He's handsome and funny as hell. (He even understand my taste of humor in Monty Python). But of course I don't have any fluffy feeling for him. Even when I don't have any special feeling for this guy, I could easily find him attractive.

You know that simple gesture some guys does when they're reversing the car where they would put their hand behind your seat, turn their head around instead of using the rear view mirror and then just reverse using one hand. I find that super attractive. Like phew.. 

Our exact conversation back then was:

Day: Are you doing that to look cool?

The Dude: Do what?

Day: You know.. Reversing the car like that..

The Dude: Nah.. I just don't trust the reflection..

And then he just chuckled and flowers bloomed around him like in the Japanese manga. Hot damn..

Let's be clear.. Not that I fester any feelings for him.. But that is hard to handle. Take note guys.. This is very important..

Always..

And I mean, always reverse your car in that manner when you're trying to score a chick. If you have the parking ticket with you, bite the card while reversing.. Double kill..

Pew pew pew!

Bullets to the heart..

Adieu

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Dream Keeper Part 1

Hahaha.. Confident je letak tajuk Part-part bagai.. Macam rajin je nak sambung..

Anyway..

Hi guise,

I give you two pages of an experimental short comic. The first page, as you can see, just the same as the one I posted yesterday. Shading was done using pencil and I did a minor touch up. Entirely, conventional drawing.

The second page however, is a mixture. And the shading is made using Copic marker. Final panel is fully digital. So there you go.. Can you see the difference? Personally, the digital drawing is way neater. Tapi penat gila nak setel satu panel. Tak macam lukis direct atas paper. Hmm.. Mungkin aku patut combine lukis digital ngan conventional. 

Orait.

Until Next time.. Wait for the next part.. Tu pun kalau ada.. BAHAHA..

Adieu

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Comic Making and Stuff

Hi guise,

Sesi regangan jari jemari..
Aku sebenarnya tengah experiment buat komik secara tradisional, resepi turun temurun. Bahah! Maksud aku, bukan digital la.. Hand drawn ..

Hasilnya..

Tekan dia kuat-kuat agar dia membesar.. Maksud aku tekan gambar tu kalau nak image yang lagi besar. Kasi clear.. sikit?

Sebelum korang komen, meh aku komen dulu.

First of all, I found it tedious to edit the scanned material. Maybe because I'm not that familiar with the editing tools to remove the grey mask from scanning. But, relatively, it's faster to do it this way. I always feel that digital drawing is straining my eyes and neck. Lukis direct kat medium memang awesome nak berbanding tangan duk canting tablet, mata tertacap kat monitor. Sungguh penat! Plus, when drawing it directly onto the paper, there's a certain style to it. It's rough, it has personality in it. I kinda miss making comic conventionally..

Bahah.. That's my two cents. Sebenarnya tengah pilih style lukeh ni. Gigih pulak aku duk ngadap benda ni kan? Jalan cerita dah ada.. Mungkin aku akan post kat VB once dh complete? Biasanya mungkin aku tu lebih ke arah tak mungkin la kan? Hahahaha. Sabo jele..

Adieu

Extra:

Personally, I love it so much.. The roughness in it. Free.. I could never recreate this digitally.. Not the same flakiness.. That imperfection which defines your drawing style. Ejewah, bajet kaki seni pulak. Bahaha!

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Empty Straws and Drinking Habit

Hi guise,

I'm actually working on two comic posts right now. I'm getting really slow these days. Sebab nak kaler skali kan. Heh, tu la. Rajen sangat. Tadi duk godak-godak, terjumpa satu komik yang belum post. Rasanya belum post kot. eh yeke? Agaknya la..

I don't even remember the original write-up but I think it went something like this...

Everyone has their own favorite way to consume their favorite drinks. One of my favorite drinks is Vitagen. Yang putih tu. Lazat sangad. I've read once how Obefiend would consume his bottle of Vitagen by sipping it and leaving a bit of the liquid by the tip of his tongue to really savor it. I don't know. I'm recalling what I've read years ago. Don't take my word for it.

Anyway, my way of drinking them is a bit not so lady like. Since I lived alone previously, I would use only 1 straw and just poke the bottles one by one while they're still in a pack. And I usually finish them off in one go. Like this.

Courtesy of Google image link

I actually copied the style from this drama because, dang, that's the most convenient way to drink Vitagen. I mean, why didn't I think of that? Freaking genius!

The point is actually, you don't really care how you behave when you're alone. I was a mess before my housemate join my den of craziness. I'm a mess still but at least I try to behave in front of my housemate? A bit? I guess?? Okay, maybe I still behave like an alien. Lisa, I hope you would understand why there are so many unused Vitagen straws in the fridge. Teehee.. Old habit dies hard..

That's it. I'm off to my drafting table again. Good night. Have fun with the weirdness within you. I believe in you. Weird for the win!

Adieu

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The Annoying Koala

Hi Guise,

I think by now you are aware of how much negativity I have in my mind. I don't usually share it with people because it is troublesome. But when I do open my mouth, i find it hard to stop. Macam paip air pecah.. Semua kasi keluar.

The problem is, people tend to be annoyed by that. I want to say that I would try to keep it to myself a bit but I don't I know how. There's no stopping it. i will pester your life with my never ending drama. That's what you have to pay being such a good listener.

An actual snippet from my WhatsApp convo with Yus. yeah, I pester her alot.

Padan muka dia. Sape suh kawan ngan aku.

Adieu.

p/s: Aku dah join Tapastic. It's a great place to read indie comic.

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The Powerful Maknae

Hi guise..

Dalam carta Keluarga Halim, aku ni boleh dikatakan yang paling berkuasa la. My words are the Law between us sisters. Tapi hakikatnya, kuasa sebenar ada pada adik aku yang bongsu. Aku pun tak tahu macam mana nak explain, tapi dia memang power la. Silap-silap haribulan mau digulingnya tampuk pemerintahan aku. Ini lah pencabar terdekat Cik Deaday.. Beliau adalah Nabe.

Semalam, tanggal 26 Januari 2015 merupakan hari lahir ke-14 adik aku yang bongsu, Si Nabe. Kalau ikut kamus bahasa korea kita panggil dia maknae. Adik Nabe ni perangai dia lebih kurang aku. Brutal tapi jiwa seni. Memang kami yang kakak-kakak ni suka nak dapatkan perhatian dia ni. Dah nama pun adik yang paling kecik kan.

Tapi budak ni, dari dia sekolah rendah sampai la sekarang dah sekolah menengah selalu buat perangai macam dia ni dewasa sangat. Harap maklum, bukan buat-buat tapi memang perangai dia ni macam orang tua sikit. Tak main la berperangai mcam kanak-kanak riang. Tak kelas kot.

Sebab tu aku ngan kakak yang lain sampai dah buntu nak kasi up sikit semangat muda dia ni. Tak tau la camna nak kasi dia jadi dak-dak kecik. Haih.. Ni dah Form two ni harapanlah nak tengok dia berperangai budak-budak. Urgh.. Rimas dapat adik yang buat perangai kakak ni. Adik Nabe ni tak paham ke naluri kami kakak-kakak nak bermanja? Dah la suka sound tepek "Akak, boleh tak matang sikit?"

Ngghhh.. Sabo jela..

Hah, cuba cita sikit  idea yang bernas untuk mengkanak-kanakkan balik adik aku yang sorang ni. Geram aih buat apa pun tak jalan. Apa-apa pun Adik Nabe, Selamat Ulang Tahun Kelahiran. Sorry la komik lambat siap kalau tak malam tadi dah post entry ni. Hue hue hue..

Ni dah macam mana aku nak tutup entry kali ni?

Ahh.. Aku pun tak tau..

Adieu

p/s; Trying different style of colouring.. Is it better than before?

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The Lifetime Achievement Award

Hi Guise,

Kei: Are you serious? This is the third year you winning the award..

Day: There'll always be next year...

Over the span of 6 years running this blog I have taken multiple hiatus and at times just decided on my own when to pop up again like an annoying zit on your forehead. Don't get me wrong, I don't feel like I'm forced to do this but sometimes it feels like I'm dragging my butt just to come out with something. Ideas are not like fruits you can just pick from the tree. Even if it is, do you know how much work it takes to get a juicy, sweet fruit? I'm derailing..

I'm not going to apologize for it this time since I know for sure that I will do this again. So, fuck it.

Latest update so far.. I have a new house mate. She's my classmate during my degree years. And yes, that means she's an engineer too. I don't know why I even mention this because it doesn't really matter. Well, actually it does matter a bit since we can actually communicate in the same wavelength. Most of my everyday rant is about work anyway and who better to understand my banter than my fellow ingenieur. Ingenieur united!

Between the bad fever, the bad back and the bad breath, I am working so hard to work my aging body. I feel like I'm getting lazier by the day.

(The first four paragraph was written on 13th December 2014. Yeah.. i am pro at procrastinating)

By the way.. I participated in a collaboration with other comic bloggers and the comic is out for grab. It's my first project so I would really appreciate the feedback. Visit the link to grab a copy of our fabulous comic.. Wee!!

http://buasirotak.blogspot.com/2015/01/projek-buku-buasir-otak-komik.html

Ok.. That's all for now..

Adieu

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