Helluuu.. lamanya tak menaip kat sini.
Rasa macam canggung nak merangka ayat. Nak post BI ke BM pun rasa cam berbelah bahagi lagi ni.
So here we go.
It has been a year since I last posted. To be honest there's nothing much to share and the older I get, the more reluctant I am to voice out my disgruntle. Even a short shitpost on Facebook or twitter feels like an overblown reaction to a minor displease.
However, 5 days back I was rather distraught about signing the SSPA. It's not because I think Sistem Saraan Malaysia (SSM) is better than Sistem Saraan Perkhidmatan Awam (SSPA) but it's more about my general disappointment towards how much I am valued as an experienced engineer.
When I first joined the service, I was offered RM 2529 as basic plus RM300 Fixed Civil Service Allowance, RM250 Fixed housing Allowance and 5% Critical Service Allowance of RM 126.45. They total up to RM 3,205.45. Not bad right? a bit more than what I was offered as a fresh graduate back in 2012. Back then I was offered RM3000. It was somehow a bit insulting for an experienced engineer who earned double in private sector. But it's okay. It's for survival. I was planning to apply for a salary review anyway.
The salary review could only be done after a year so that the board could have a clear view of how my experience fit my current position. After a year of preparing the paperwork (delay on my part), my salary review was approved ALHAMDULILLAH. I was awarded with a 3 step salary increase. However, the approval is not to be taken retrospectively which means no arrears. I would only be paid said amount from the date of approval. That in itself was already quite disappointing because it means that for two years, my experience was not valued. I was paid a fresh engineer even though my appointment was considering my previous experience in private sector. I buried my disgruntle because what more can I do? By now, my salary is still no where near how I was paid 4 years back. But it's okay. Alhamdulillah..
PMX announced the new remuneration system, promising a more honorable salary for the public servant. Like many public servant, I breathed a breath of relief while being aware of the anger rising from the public for "wasting duit rakyat". It's a regular rant every time the Government announce any new benefit for the Public Service.
The increase was welcomed but one thing really stings. SSPA fixed the Critical Service Allowance from 5% of the Basic Pay to a fixed amount of RM165. This would apply to new recruitment; current public servant will have their allowance fixed to the latest amount. For someone who just joined the Public Service, my allowance is still at an entry level. In general I feel like my whole professionalism is only valued at a bare minimum.
So I was shaking when I signed my form. It's a culmination of disappointment and exhaustion of two years. Even after this adjustment, my pay is still much lower that what I was offered then but the workload is crazy. Whoever said working in the Public Service is an easy job probably strike a luck. Aku kerja macam lembu. (Sorry, no english sentence could top this). Due to this, I shared my sadness on Facebook. Which is really, really wrong because apparently as a Public Servant you don't have a say in public anymore. It's not even a critic towards the current Government at all but a general displease towards how talents are valued in this this country.
One of my old friends sub-posted, making fun of me word-for-word. About shaking, about feeling lied to.. I guess he is happy with his pay Alhamdulillah. I just can't have a friend who would mock me for my feelings in an underhanded way. We could have a civil discussion, instead you mock me without understanding why I feel that way.
I conclude this occurrence as a wake up call not to share my feelings on Facebook. People are rarely empathetic and more prone to mocking. I guess I come back to this blog to rant. Hahaha.
Tapi itulah.. Sekarang ni nak ada masa untuk melukis pun susah. Menulis apatah lagi. Ini pun geram sangat, curi jugak masa nak melampiaskan rasa hati. Masa kerja swasta dulu, gaji lagi tinggi, kos hidup rendah, kerja lebih santai. Ada masa untuk actually enjoy my life financially. Sekarang, dapat bonus lebih sikit pun kena hadap maki dulu. Ada apa-apa tak puas hati, pukul rata semua Penjawat Awam. Belum lagi menghadap barah dalam Perkhidmatan Awam tu sendiri
Harapnya taraf berpencen yang ditawarkan dulu masih valid. Tahun depan baru boleh proses. Kalau tiba-tiba dibuatnya kata batch aku pun takleh amik taraf berpencen, aku tak tahu la nak cakap apa.
Adieu
