My Own Colour

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Hi Guise,


My mind is a lonely place. Sure it provides me ample distraction to stop thinking about how much being an adult suck. I seek refuge in this tiny grey box I have for a mind. Sometimes, when I spend too much time on my own, I crave for companion. It gets boring talking to yourself. You know what you're going to say. You know your word won't hurt you. And you know even if it is hurtful, you will be okay with it. 

Loneliness is a void.. It gets so empty that I just can't stand it's emptiness.. And so I create a door, hoping that someone would enter. Sometimes I get lucky, they'll come. Bearing these amazing colours of thoughts and stories. 





Sometimes they get too colourful that I feel uncomfortable. I need to escape..







Sorry for the lousy Gif..




When they don't want to go away, I retreat into my grey box. Where I can feel safe, warm and free.. But it's lonely there.. How can you be free while you're confined? Is it weird that I only feel like myself when I'm all alone? Is it wrong to be your own person?





This is what I feel about my artwork..


I want to be free.. I am comfortable with whatever colour I am. I'll admit that your colours are magnificent beyond doubt. It might even be what many people is aiming for. You have so many colours to choose while I only have grey. But I'm fine with it. Please don't paint me with your colour, your definition of how art should be.. I don't mind being mediocre. I don't mind my artwork is just a lousy artwork. As long as it's mine, unconfined, free.. i'm happy with it.

Some people might love change. Some people might rush to evolve. But I am perfectly okay with being stagnant.

So please.. Understand that I want to be confined in my grey box..

Just please.. Let me be..

I'll grow at my own rate..


Adieu

P/S: Crazy kejar deadline so I won't be posting anymore comic for a while. Unless kalau dah gian sangat.
p/p/s: Annoying gila gif ni. Ni last aku buat gif.. Unless kalau dah terer buat gif power nanti..

Right! Stop it. It's getting silly. Now get on with it. Get on with it!

29 comments:

  1. kadang kadang aku suka warna.. kadang kadang aku malas... jadi ade aku kisah.. wkwkwkwk

    chaiyok chaiyok Day... wkwkwkw

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    1. Mslh plg besar sbnrnya malas. Aku kalau mwarna tu senang, xdela aku buat b&w. Ni duhai lecehnya..

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    2. kan... aku cukup malas jugak kalau nak buat komik berwarna... malas sangat... tapi aku paksa gak laaa kalau aku buat komik pasal Mem Kecik.. koh koh koh

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  2. tapi kena keluar jugak dari comfort zone..or else you gain nothing :)

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    1. That's true if you want to gain something. But what if you don't aim for anything?

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  3. black and white dah mewakili semua warna...kalau fi pun prefer tone itam putih kalau ngedit tone gamba..heheehehe

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    1. Klau ikut preference mmg lagi minat color tp leceh.. Huhu. Lg saturated lg comey..

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  4. eh btw lukis pakai mende ? berapa lama amek masa nk pandai lukis..superbbbb arr lukisan!!

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    1. Hardware: Wacom Bamboo Fun
      Software: Paint Tool Sai + PS Element

      Pandai tu subjektif tu. Hahaha. Melukis dh lama. Dr zaman sekolah menengah..

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    2. hahaha terima kasih diatas penjelasan..

      haha

      ada tak web tutorial nk laja lukis?

      plsssss

      kbye.. :P

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    3. Day study syok sendiri je fi.. Main tgk kt youtube pastu lukis suka hati.. Yg penting hari2 kena pegang pensel

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  5. Well most typical introverts feel the same way i guess, cuma berbeza tang mengikut tahap masing2 je lah. Anyway, about the color part, to me grey is an awesome color, mysterious even. Not black, not white, it's in between, unconfirmed, having so many shades. Kool gila kowt warna kelabu tuh. Aku suka pakai tudung/baju warna kelabu. Aku rasa annoyed n a bit disturbed dgn sorang cikgu skolah menengah aku dlu bila dia tegur tudung aku waktu pendidikan jasmani tu warna "kelabu taik anjing". I was like, what the fish woman? U got sumthing wrong with yo brain? Hahah, dlm hati je la aku maki tu lulz ;3

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    1. Bahahaha.. Emo kelabu tak mendapat sambutan. Kelabu adalah osem.

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  6. mangaka jepun pun lukis hitam putih sahaja, dont feel bad about it huhu

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    1. Tapi osem diorang terer pkai screen tone.. Warhhh nk blaja!

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  7. 50 shades of kelabu, bebeh...hehehe

    AKu faham tang perasaan nakkan kebebasan tp kekadang kena ikut arahan org jugak tu...
    Pada aku satu je prinsip,
    'as long as tak susahkan orang lain, buatlah apa yang kau suka...'

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    1. True. True.. Follow the rule when you hve to

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  8. simple yet very deep though. i get the gist when you say you love talking with yourself and how immersing in your own thought can be deeply peaceful for you. cause i am just like you. yeah i love having ME time and the presence of people around us sometimes suffocate us. tapi kena mingle jugak la ngan masyarakat. baru ada idea fresh iye dok?

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  9. dea bay...anneong!nice gila mendoodle..nak tnya u punya karikatur and benda benda doodle nih bt sedirik ke?including that GIF?u buat sedrik ekkk ????interested to know..sebab kreatif ....keep blogging!

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    1. Haah buat sendiri. Tp gif tu tgh belajar lagi. Keep reading!

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  10. klik ur nuffnang sensodyne..btw kenapa tak der chatbox?hehehhehefollow u too :)

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    1. Thanks. Dulu ada chatbox pastu dia kaput. Lepas tu dh tak letak dh chatbox

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  11. Aku men ngan kaler sbb aku rasa artwork aku sngt dulll...guhuhuhu.. tp tuh pun aku still rasa artwork b&w aku lg cantik dr coloured..guhuhuhu..and the worst thing is aku rasa art aku takdak identity...guhuhuhu.. QAQ

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    1. I can always tell it's yours. Sometimes strangers see your true value better that you yourself. As far as i remember the comic post on your blog is one of my most anticipated blog update on my reading list. Semua comic blogger la aku suka. You all, group hug!!

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    1. Wasalam. Terima kasih lalt. Mohon sudi hinggap lagi di sini

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    2. Wasalam. Terima kasih lalt. Mohon sudi hinggap lagi di sini

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Haa.. Cakap utagha pulak..

Day,


Part time normal, most of the time comic enthusiast. Almost always borderline crazy. Still experimenting with comic blogging. An engineer with a vision to not be taken seriously. Everything you read on this blog doesn't represent my gender, religion or profession as a whole. Other name you might associate with me are Deaday, DayGoon, JaeminGoon and *cough* Mona *cough*